these photos of my brother were taken during the summer of ‘13. we had took a stroll through a vacant parking lot near a church and began to shoot.
these are just a few photos of my family from left to right - sister, brother & mother. these are also a few edits that i recently had a chance to work on as the original / edited versions needed a few revisions. time to put my camera to use again.
i’ve been wanting to share my work for a while and thought now would be the best time to do so. i’m going to try harder to be dedicated this time around so i’m doing so with this first batch of photos with the very first taken back in 2011 or 2012. not sure. the next photo is of my mothers book of poetry & the last photo is the most recent.
if it was never clear before today g r a c e j o n e s gives me life. i don’t know too much about her but i’ve seen many photos of her throughout my years of living and i’ve always wondered how she dared to be different in a world where beauty is the forefront. from her haircut, style to how she used her expressions as a form of individuality makes me want to find my inner grace jones & she happens to be a taurus. it’s meant to be.
i really should be far more accomplished than i am as much time as i spend on the internet day in and day out. my days usually consist of me going to bed late as hell, waking up even later & after brushing my teeth, washing my face etc. turning my macbook on and spending many hours online. luckily i’m not a gamer because that would just be truly sad. i actually spend a lot of time trying to find inspiration, encouragement & a reason to push myself harder than i do. i look for little peaks of positivity anywhere i can find it - the downfall is that my talent isn’t being viewed the way it should be and it’s my own damn fault. i can’t tell you the many of times i’ve had people give me a chance just for me to not even take full advantage. my life sucks in that manner but it’s all about to change because i am sick of not getting ahead when i know i have the will to be successful. my goal for tumblr is to post my photography, keep putting out positive energy & network / connect & reach out to like minded people. that sounds like a challenge within itself. i have faith though.
i’ve been coming to quite a few realizations as of lately. number one being that my thoughts never stray too far away from my everyday way of thinking. there are goals i want to accomplish & i am determined to fulfill them in this lifetime right now. number two - people have had long extended stays in my life that i am now welcoming to walk away forever. i’m at a point in my life where my self worth means more to me than people who only have a seasonal stay. i like spring but i love fall and with that being said i love me more. the way i see things now is more clearer than i’ve ever seen things in my entire life. who am i is the question i’ve been asking myself on & off for a while. when i ask myself that i’m not asking who am i attached with her, him, them & the world. my purpose is feeling more of importance these days.
no matter how you may feel in the present moment, you are still learning something new. to put it simply we can’t live without an understanding of where we stand in life. we have decisions to make whether on impulse or with time given. understanding the human mind is the hardest thing to comprehend as our thoughts & individuality have different roles that are played at various moments in our lives. you wake up to the idea of something not being as it was yesterday. you wake up to the idea that you are going to do something different which in return requires you to apply yourself to the idea that this may be new, life changing or what have you. we have these moments that don’t feel like moments at all where we have learned something new without even feeling a budge in our conscious. it’s time to be a little more aware of that.
one photographer that i give credit & constant praise to is Gordon Parks. through his lens he has captured so many historic, deep in depth moments that will never be forgotten. this man dared to be himself during a time where our rights were still being fought for - a time where racism was meant segregation. i have yet to own his visual photography book along with half past autumn. i just want to find that inner freedom, drive & inspiration within myself. long live gordon.
boomerang ‘92. i was only five when this film came out in theaters so i’d only grasp & come to an understanding of how big eddie murphy actually was then & where halle berry’s career was heading later in life but that’s beside the point. this film has many funny elements in it & the soundtrack is dope. grace jones comes to mind as soon as i think about this film overall. she was doing the most along with eartha kitt.
mo better blues ‘90. no one really knows this about me but my favorite film director is spike lee. his work within itself has set a tone for me in my life with crooklyn being the first movie that gave me a visual realization of how films can have an impact on you without really hitting you until later in life. same with this very film. it wasn’t until a few years ago that i brought mo better & actually sat through it. i was inspired, moved & deeply open to an era of time that was birthed before my existence & even my parents existence. i can honestly say that spike lee & the cosby show put me onto jazz. that was never a genre of music that was played in my house growing up but i truly love it now. denzel’s acting in this film was just very grabbing of my attention. you’ll enjoy this if you enjoy drama and jazz.
during the early 90’s i was only just beginning to understand life. i was learning how to count, recite abc’s as well as grasping pop culture in a way that most learned via television. not through tablets, computers or cell phones. for me sitting in front of the tv was everything. before i knew who michael jackson was i gawked & admired janet jackson. that was my idol. she was what beyonce is to females now. her style, music, acting skills & beauty always blew me away. i can’t even remember how much of a fan i was now because i was so young but i will never forget her being one of my earliest memories. i still love her and her body of work.