when i’m into someone they’ll know it. i’m not always blunt about it - not that i can’t be because i can but it drives people to fear and i don’t want anyone to be afraid of my forwardness. i’m human you know? we tend be so afraid to be forward because of what others may think of us. they won’t like you for many reasons but that special person will love you because of your kindness & the genuine qualities. i aim to be bold for whoever that person is. not someone who thinks shallow of my character.
awake watching this film i have to read subtitles for on netflix titled kiss me. i put grey’s anatomy on pause for this so it better be worth it. the sad part is that i took a sleeping pill that hasn’t quite kicked in yet & it’s going to do so probably when i really get into this film. so heartbreaking.
sidenote: i hate summer & it’s not even here yet. this heat & these bugs gotta go yo! i’m seriously planning to move where it’s cold & spring like all year around. i’m not even thinking hard & i’m sweating.
i’ve been close to quite a few people over the years. probably closer than i should’ve been in most cases but none the less there was a closeness there. people have always been attached to me but i have never figured that out. i mean, i’m me period. that’s all i know how to be. i don’t want to be figured out but at the same time i am open. my flaws & truths are on the table - not hidden. i allow people to ask me things that others would lie about or have no answer to. i push envelopes & make people question how honest they actually want to be with themselves. i fall for the weaker parts of people & honor the strengths as they unfold. i can tell when someone is afraid to open up & i know when it’s time to let go & stop trying. i have walked in & out of many lives because of that. many that linger in my mind & those i have forgotten. i try to remember them all because each have given me something special & important that can’t be given away. my love is real.
life goals : to have my music in a film or tv show, see my photography in a magazine & be an extra on a tv show. if i could do all of those things & more my life would be made even if i wasn’t paid. it’s all about the experience & what you gain from them. plus it sounds like fun & that’s what i’m about.
the weather can be a dangerous thing man. i’ve been trying to keep up with all the tornadoes that have been going on all over & i just can’t. they freak me out more than anything else because they can rip through a whole city at speeds that most likely leave you stuck where you are forcing you to ride it out. the one that was on the news today was just furious. i’m sure the death toll will climb because it was bad. i get nervous when i watch the news because tornadoes have hit virginia before & i don’t have time for that.
i can vibe with almost anyone as long as me and my space is respected. too many people try to invade that by telling me what’s right for me. that’s a line that needs no crossing. i am still trying to figure things out & mistakes will be made along the way but if you are here for me, you’ll understand my journey as i learn to understand yours. let’s help each other not break one another.