elli has become my new boo for this one right here.
i’ve been known to get ghost on people. i believe i’ve disappeared out of almost everyones life at least once. on my end it was expected. i even warned them ahead of time but some were too arrogant & didn’t believe my words & actions to be true. if i didn’t i’d never know if i miss that individual or if it was a phase or if it was an infatuation or if it was sex or if i was starting to care too much too soon or whatever. all i know is that i had to leave. i had to see if they were worth me coming back. if i’d be missed or if i was just another individual who happens to wander in anothers life for the fucking hell of it. i still can’t say. i just know whenever i’m overwhelmed i completely shut down for a bit.
people want power & they want you to give them that however they can take it whether it’s through mental intrusion, physical obstruction or emotionally - they will take it. don’t let them. i can’t say how. i’m still learning but i do know that people be on a real power trip. it’s an ego thing or more. bleh.
i see myself as a positive uplifting individual that wants to help people. my purpose is not for me i don’t believe. that would be too selfish & vain of me. i believe i’m here to reach out, be the face of change & show life from my point of view. i may drag my past in the mud but i will always be the light at the end of the tunnel. it may not be the brightest but i will try my damnest to put a smile on someones face even if there isn’t one on my own. i want to spread love. that’s really all i want to do with my life. i want to see children, adults, seniors - people of all races smile. it’s too much grief & sadness - not enough love.
i don’t call people i don’t care to speak to nor do i answer my phone for those same people. i’m not big on texting either so if i text you back you should feel special. i usually just throw my phone down & keep it moving. i don’t really visit peoples blogs unless i’m really interested. you will know if i’m viewing mad old posts posted forever ago. i become that kind of creep but it means i like you at least a little bit. i rarely ever say i love you but if i do it means i really fucking love you. i have never fought for love because no one has ever given me a reason to. sometimes i doubt if i’ll know if that person will be worth it.
we all entertain the thought, embark on the action or think about the next person we plan to have sexually. i love stories of the mind blowing sex & the not so mind blowing sex - or just sharing an idea or thought about it. i’m just interested. there’s always something new to learn about sex in my opinion.
i fall for women that sing & sing amazingly well. women who sing & mean it. women who sing & make you feel it. women who sing to me & make me feel like i’m special. this is a rare thing but when it happens i am truly in love.
growing up in the 90’s for me was the illest thing. the groups were just so dope & jodeci is indeed one of those groups that changed the game. talk to you was written by me & produced by ric&thadeus. listen & enjoy!
the next person i find myself in a relationship with will have to be an artist or at least a love for the many forms of art. that’s the only way it’s going to work without me feeling like i’m compromising.
i’m passionate about a lot of things. mainly people & the power we tend to have without knowing. what you do with that power is what makes you who you are - with that being said it’s not really power. it’s just about the way you use yourself & the way people respond. i’m really big on communication. it’s one of the forms that are important to me.