1. blacula ‘72. i didn’t watch films from the 70’s that much growing up & if i did i don’t really have much memory of them. one day i happen to turn to a channel on my tv & saw that they were playing blaxploitation films and blacula was one of them. i remember thinking to myself - this isn’t scary at all but the idea of a black dracula kept my interest as did vonetta mcgee. this woman is beautiful. she represents black beauty in my eyes.

  2. when i was younger i had dreams of going to a university to be amongst my peers because of a different world. while my life took another turn - not for the bad i still hold this show in my heart. it gave me a sense of values & proved that you can be whatever you want to be, go where you want to go if you really want it. school may not be for everyone but this show sure did make it look fun. it made me view education differently & ultimately it still changes someones perspective today.
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    when i was younger i had dreams of going to a university to be amongst my peers because of a different world. while my life took another turn - not for the bad i still hold this show in my heart. it gave me a sense of values & proved that you can be whatever you want to be, go where you want to go if you really want it. school may not be for everyone but this show sure did make it look fun. it made me view education differently & ultimately it still changes someones perspective today.
  3. loungin around the house in a cut up tee & thermal pants that comforted me this winter. i just recently boxed them up. time to enjoy spring / summer 2014.
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    loungin around the house in a cut up tee & thermal pants that comforted me this winter. i just recently boxed them up. time to enjoy spring / summer 2014.
  4. A Cigarette Smokin’ Jazz Musician

    if i were born in the 1930’s or earlier i would’ve hoped to have been in a band or better yet a jazz musician with style. i’m not sure if i’d want to be a vocalist or a instrumentalist but i’d most def love to have been a miles davis, duke ellington, nat king cole type. they would’ve been the guys i look up to, the ones i’d go to for fashion, life & relationship advice. of course this is all just a vision i had in mind. an idea of what life was back then though i would never know unless i’ve been here before and someone stole my memories - i want them back by the way. no seriously i’ve been literally listening to nothing but jazz music while watching documentaries off and on. i just truly love that era of time. it’s mysterious enough for me to guess what those times were like but also very much alive as that generation of men and women are still alive. i need to find me some older people to talk to so they can share with me their memories ..if they still remember.
  5. the brand new heavies self titled album was released in 1991.

  6. i know nothing really when it comes to africa. i know of course that it’s a continent with countries / states. i know that in america we focus on slavery more than the actual culture and the advantages we have to educate ourselves. i also know that there’s beauty as well as dangers but are we safe anywhere in the world these days or in previous years? no we aren’t. i am learning to embrace life as it is & not letting my fears of what people are capable of doing hold me back. after watching the series shuga based in lagos i started thinking about how i know so little about africa and how i want to open my mind. from this photo i see hustle & bustle. i see a lot of people who are in need of different things and what they are i may never know but i love this photo because it’s a place in the world i have yet to physically explore myself. for now youtube, tumblr & google are my ways of viewing a place i want to travel someday.
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    i know nothing really when it comes to africa. i know of course that it’s a continent with countries / states. i know that in america we focus on slavery more than the actual culture and the advantages we have to educate ourselves. i also know that there’s beauty as well as dangers but are we safe anywhere in the world these days or in previous years? no we aren’t. i am learning to embrace life as it is & not letting my fears of what people are capable of doing hold me back. after watching the series shuga based in lagos i started thinking about how i know so little about africa and how i want to open my mind. from this photo i see hustle & bustle. i see a lot of people who are in need of different things and what they are i may never know but i love this photo because it’s a place in the world i have yet to physically explore myself. for now youtube, tumblr & google are my ways of viewing a place i want to travel someday.
  7. when it comes to self portraits i find myself reflecting on how many shots it will take until i find that one, the golden one. sometimes it’s hit or miss but there are times when even i shock my damn self. this isn’t one of those photos but there’s a significant amount of self in this shot. the masking of my face is how i view myself in this world. i used to hide behind my fro but now that i’ve chopped it off i see me for who i am & there are times when i’m not really sure who that is. this photo is a reflection of how i view myself. still trying to find me in the mist of it all.
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    when it comes to self portraits i find myself reflecting on how many shots it will take until i find that one, the golden one. sometimes it’s hit or miss but there are times when even i shock my damn self. this isn’t one of those photos but there’s a significant amount of self in this shot. the masking of my face is how i view myself in this world. i used to hide behind my fro but now that i’ve chopped it off i see me for who i am & there are times when i’m not really sure who that is. this photo is a reflection of how i view myself. still trying to find me in the mist of it all.
  8. just like everyone else who loves the cosby show, i had daydreams of being a huxtable & still do sometimes. they gave me a depth of family value, dedication & hard work. they showed me that two parent homes amongst african american families exist with a working mother & father. it’s not cookie cutter to me because i want something similar in my life minus a house full of children beings though i come from a family of five. til this day i still love every single thing about the cosby show so my future partner must understand that there will be times when we sit & watch this for a few hours.
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    just like everyone else who loves the cosby show, i had daydreams of being a huxtable & still do sometimes. they gave me a depth of family value, dedication & hard work. they showed me that two parent homes amongst african american families exist with a working mother & father. it’s not cookie cutter to me because i want something similar in my life minus a house full of children beings though i come from a family of five. til this day i still love every single thing about the cosby show so my future partner must understand that there will be times when we sit & watch this for a few hours.
  9. i’ve been listening to nothing but jazz music, mainly due to my mind needing a break from today’s music. there’s this want / need to feel a closeness to artist way before my time such as thelonious monk. i always knew his name but didn’t really start getting into his music until about 3 years ago. i’ve come across some solid gems by this guy & his crew. i dedicated my saturday to listening to some albums from his discography with straight, no chaser and monk’s dream getting me through this dreary day. give his music a listen if you haven’t already. btw like many other jazz musicians thelonious had style.
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    i’ve been listening to nothing but jazz music, mainly due to my mind needing a break from today’s music. there’s this want / need to feel a closeness to artist way before my time such as thelonious monk. i always knew his name but didn’t really start getting into his music until about 3 years ago. i’ve come across some solid gems by this guy & his crew. i dedicated my saturday to listening to some albums from his discography with straight, no chaser and monk’s dream getting me through this dreary day. give his music a listen if you haven’t already. btw like many other jazz musicians thelonious had style.
  10. Pros and Cons

    i’ve never been the type to force someone to give me their undivided attention. maybe i never needed it that much or never liked the idea of forcing someone to give me something they ultimately wouldn’t have given me on their own. i think too much. i’ve also never been the type to continuously try to talk to someone who has no interest in me at all. rejection like that makes me feel some type of way for a moment but then i rationalize with myself and ask myself questions like : do you know their values, where they are heading in life, the pros / cons of what they stand for, what they’d gain & i’d lose, just things like that & then i feel better because i come to a realization that what i was holding onto has nothing to do with who they are in general. my brain has patterns. one moment i have a burst of creativity, energy & happiness but then there are those dark moments where i become extremely sad & feel like nothing i do will ever matter. yeah, i beat myself up a lot mentally because i want so many things to pan out for me without no sense of direction. my life is just not where i want it to be & i can’t for the life of me get a jump start on it.
  11. have you ever just sat and listened to marvin gaye and said to yourself he was so talented because i have on numerous occasions. though he isn’t alive i feel his spirit each time i press play. i couldn’t even tell you what my favorite album is because they’re all perfect in their own right but if i really had to choose i’d say trouble man. it’s the first album that i actually listened to in full & thought to myself - why am i just listening to him? marvin’s vocals sit on tracks like butter on toast point blank. get into him.
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    have you ever just sat and listened to marvin gaye and said to yourself he was so talented because i have on numerous occasions. though he isn’t alive i feel his spirit each time i press play. i couldn’t even tell you what my favorite album is because they’re all perfect in their own right but if i really had to choose i’d say trouble man. it’s the first album that i actually listened to in full & thought to myself - why am i just listening to him? marvin’s vocals sit on tracks like butter on toast point blank. get into him.
  12. Quality / Quantity

    my goals are the same as last year & will be the same goals until i’ve achieved, accomplished & mastered them. i want to be successful, travel parts of the world, meet like minded people & let my art earn me income. i want to be an entrepreneur & i want to get out of Virginia as soon as possible. moving requires planning & saving - neither of which i’ve actually thought about in depth but i am about to start thinking that way. i don’t even have a location in mind but i’m gonna work on that as well.

    my focus is my music, photography, filmmaking & building solid connections with people - all of which i have to seriously work on. my passion is with my music but i’m also a behind the scenes type of person so i’m working on getting comfortable with public speaking, performing & letting myself be less me & more an artist. with my photography i want to actually start shooting seriously & not the gimmicky photos i’ve shot in the past. filmmaking is not a prior as much as the others but i would love to understand the process in detail. those are just some of my crafts that i’m trying to currently master.

    i’m so hard on myself to a degree that i don’t let my failures be exactly that - a failure because i tend to give the negative parts more focus than the good that i have done over the years & that’s about to change. i want to live a more productive life than what i’m currently living. i want to focus on my health, having a routine & putting myself first. i tend to view these as me being selfish but that’s far from the truth. there is a toxic waste that i am ready to dump elsewhere. my mind, body & soul will no longer harbor that type of negativity. i want to bask in positive vibes.
  13. it’s rare that i wear plaid but i’m thinking about adding a few more plaid features to my collection of clothes. i’m more so big on wearing basketball shorts, sweatpants, cut up tees & beaters …yeah it’s time for a change.
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    it’s rare that i wear plaid but i’m thinking about adding a few more plaid features to my collection of clothes. i’m more so big on wearing basketball shorts, sweatpants, cut up tees & beaters …yeah it’s time for a change.